I know I’m a good mom. I’m the best mom that M could have. It’s true. I won’t deny it.
The thing is, I always seem to find myself looking around and thinking that all the other moms know more about this whole parenting thing than I do. And I can’t help wondering if they look at me and think the same thing. I mean, my kid is happy, polite, well adjusted, and even tends to do what I tell him to do on occasion. So maybe I even deserve some admiration.
After almost two years, I even sometimes feel like I do have some answers. That I can give advice with a bit of authority, even. But at the same time, I often feel a little bit lost. And I don’t even know why.
Maybe it’s just because the job is always changing. From day to day, there’s nothing to say that the way things were done yesterday is the way they should be done today. It can be trying. It can make me want to seek answers from every together-looking mom I see. But it’s also an amazing experience. Challenging. And I’m becoming a better person because of it. Even if I don’t have all the answers. Even if I never do.