Me and the Internet

So, every once in awhile, I google myself (sounds dirty), just to see where I stand in the mess of the internet. To see what people who might think to google me would find. I don’t like it. And I’ll tell you why.

When I google my name (maiden name, that is, because my married name is both new and generic enough that very little that is related directly to me actually comes up), I find past mistakes. You know, things that you wish would just disappear, but because you have no control over the internet or the websites that house your mistakes, won’t. Now, I’m not talking internet porn or racy naked pictures or anything like that. What I’m talking about is merely poetry. Some things that maybe I don’t want to be associated with anymore. Things I’ve changed my mind about, or even that I hesitated on in the first place, before I realized my intuition deserves more credit than I gave it at the time, you know?

I have a few poems in a book that’s available through Amazon. Cool, right? Well, not when you look at the reviews that were written by folks unrelated to the book’s production. Fortunately, I’m not mentioned as one of the “worst” poets in the collection, but damn. Oh, yeah, and I’m omitting the title and direct link on purpose. You don’t need to know that much of my shame.

There’s another poem of mine on a website I’d rather not name, because since submitting the poem there, I have asked to have it removed. But it seems the entire site has gone inert. Therefore, no removals or additions since 2003. However, it is still the number one page that comes up when you google me.

How would I change these search results? Axe the links discussed above, for one. And, since my wedding site comes up with a name search, make that in the top few. Also, in Yahoo, the results include a flyer for when I received that award from school, so that would be nice to have up there. It’s just that a part of me knows (given the incident with the internet stalker person) that there are people out there who might have known me in a former incarnation, but base their ideas on who I was or am by those meager search results.

I’m still not ready to post my full name on this blog for a number of reasons, of which many bloggers are well aware. But I wish that there was a way to get the name from several years and incarnations ago removed from the unforgetful (and unforgiving) internet.

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6 thoughts on “Me and the Internet

  1. Treggles says:

    Hi. Found you blog through blogger’s “next blog” button.

    Glad I’m not the only one to Google my (real) name. I too find things I’d rather not find: mostly daft posts to newsgroups a few years ago.

    I’m pretty sure there’s nothing we can do about it.

  2. Hi I´m Chris. Greatings from Germany Bottrop !!

  3. Dustin says:

    Hi there. I just ran by your blog and thought it was funny because I do the same thing. Though my name is the exact same as a celebrity so I’m never able to find anything good. Cheers!

    -Dustin

  4. Corie says:

    Hi! Came across your blog while surfing and thought I’d comment because I too google myself (really, who doesn’t?) but nothing other then an old e-mail address ever seems to show up. Which is fine with me!
    Also thought I should note that Chriswoznitza (your 2nd comment) must definitely make the rounds on blogger because he left the exact same comment on mine like two weeks ago! How funny!

  5. Lee says:

    I hate blogger comments and the spam and drivel they tend to attract… I do like your new template, though!

    And, I feel your pain. Mine is the only family with our last name on the Google hitlist, so I have to be vewy, vewy careful what I attach my name to. I will say this, if I’m ever at a point in life when it is my job to hire people, the first thing I’m doing is googling them…

  6. Sara says:

    As soon as I updated, I got a comment spam. That’s why I turned on word verification. Now I just get the random traffic. And I don’t really mind that at all.

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